Memories of a Dog

Too Drunk To Fuck

 

 

 

This was one of my last rowdy nights in lincoln Heights. I recently went back to collect some things and I spent some time with Ian, we got some tacos and shared some quiet conversation. The whole thing felt as if I had never left but I wasn’t sad about it, so I think It can only mean that I was never really at home there. This can be my moment of pettiness, but I attribute that feeling the the presence of our roommate, who in the end I just feel sorry for, not sympathy these are separate emotions. It is sad that there are still some of us that hold on so tight to our pain and shame  that it becomes part of your persona and these qualities you looks for in other people to form alliances with. A partnership based on fear and shame, was not something that I could ever become a part of.

A Study For Hands Guided By Love

Transition Of The Heart

My Child hood home almost burned down at the end of the summer. I have been hesitant to talk about this because so much of me doesn’t know how I stand in this building. I grew up there, now we are not children and live our lives have our homes else were. My parents saga continues . . . transition of the heart is what everything else in your life will follow.

IAR ROV ROOU

Bangladesh People

Bangladesh (bonggludesh)

I lay down and found that I could barley close my eyes,  am so exited no sleep will come tonight.  have been in bangladesh almost 20 days. I m fully ready to home. I have seen some outrageous poverty – from these people I have  seen some outrageous generosity.  i want to say that I have learned a lot about this world. I want to say that I will do more to help others, but I dont think I am the type of person that didnt know people need helping already. I didnt need to come here to see that. What i have seen is how people accept the card they are dealt, or rather how they play tat card, do they play card?. I would have to say that I come back to my home with some new vigor. I would like to say that I am energized and ready to go to grad school and live my life. Only time will tell.

I am ready to be back in L.A.  look at the out of towners, scraping by behind a bar, and say – FUCK YOU and PISS OFF. Go to Bangladesh and then tell me how hard you have it. I want to go to grad school I don’t care were its irrelevant if you want to teach kids how to think for them selves. Bukowski being my hero I feel like a sell out being so optimistic, but I think the old man would have wanted it that way, or maybe he would have spit in my face. I dont care. . . .

. . . . I miss you.

Got Caught With My Pants Down

This house is now just planks of wood and pain. And even the pain is something that I take with me. All thats left is a bunch of molecules moving a little slower as the days go by.

DUDE CHILL OUT WE DONT ACTUALLY NEED THIS SHIT!!!!

This totally sucks , when im an old man you will know I am an old man because I wont be  usuing any of this shit. FUCK. this is horrible.

Reality-Augmenting Terminator Vision Contact Lenses Nearly Here (They’re in This Bunny’s Eye)

By matt buchanan, 7:00 PM on Tue Sep 1 2009, 41,997 views

Amazing and terrifying all at once, reality augmenting contact lenses are nearly real. Like, they’re almost here. Circuits and antennas and LEDs in a contact lens, generating virtual imagery, Predator style. In your eyeball. Or, this bunny’s:

Semi Automatic Teenager

I went to Israel, and Im not going to drag this out even thought it would be really easy to do so. Lets just say it is an amazing country. Lets Just say that most Government does not always act as the peoples will.Lets just say that the people are warm and make Patriotism look effortless.